Company

x's fade from my hands
as if the act was planned
and scripted like a movie
with beginning conflict end

It hurts to admit I lied
to connect I had to hide
from my parents who's voice was sound
I knew then that I couldn't stick around

exes fade into the past
but memories stay and the places last
they stand there to remind
who you are and where you stood in the first place

you think that I'd learn from the past
but I'm sure it only scares me
the remnants they still last
my thoughts will never be free

dear boys

that long drive north on ninety five
couldn't have made me more alive
when I couldn't take it any longer
I looked past what had made me stronger

they say that only babies cry
but at that point I felt like die
while you were there by my side
but I knew It had made me stronger

but while you were there by my side
I knew it had made me stronger

I cried there in the passenger seat
my old life was now obsolete
I watched the yellow line ahead of us
As the cold slowly settled in my feet

I wont ever forget that weekend
for the good things and the bad
sometimes words just fall short
but for that I cant be mad

while you were there by my side
I knew it had made me stronger
while you were there by my side
I was sure that it had made me stronger

crash punks vs. the world

where will you be in ten years

when you've lost your taste for drinking lots of cheap beer

and your wardrobes not all black

and you want your old friends back

what will you do?

what will you talk about in five years

you boast the hip bands you know and no one cares

question your maturity

which no one else can see

what will you do?

I know I wont be around

to watch this place that was my town

drown in this ambitious sea

of so called art you perpetuate

as the youth move in

a bitter few hold on

where will you go when you finish that beer

mask your insecurity so everyone can hear

what will you do

forget it

i don't care

Damn this pride of mine...

YOU'VE GOT YOUR REASONS
AND I'VE FIGURED THEM OUT
WELL YOU CAN COUNT ME OUT
YOU CAN COUNT ME OUT

THESE PEOPLE WHO THOUGHT
WE THOUGHT WERE THEIR FRIENDS
HAVE REALIZED
THEY'RE JUST A MEANS TO THE END
THESE HEADS AND BODIES
AREN'T A PART OF THE SCENE
THEY'RE PEOPLE TOO
THOUGH PART A VISION OF GREEN

WE'RE SACRIFICING ART
AND IT WILL SOON CATCH UP
WHEN YOUR NICHE IS GONE
WE WILL ALL MOVE ON

SO YOU CAN HOLD YOUR BREATH
CAUSE I KNOW JUST WHAT YOU SAID

Damn this pride of mine...

To Love and Not Be In Love (Let's Just Shit Ourselves)

I wish I had the guts to say
To every girl I thought I loved
when I didn't know what it meant
to be in love.
and not just to love.
that I love them
and I wish that we could
still be friends
the best of friends
and that's all
talk about our favorite things
you can still be comforting
I just wish that I could say
that it was you
not me...

Obligatory Basement Song

I once had a place where all my friends could go
admission was free and you'd see an awesome show
if you didn't know someone
you'd meet them soon enough
everyone would dance
but nobody was rough
until the day that substance
became the life of the party
the crowd just went downhill from there
until I barely knew anybody
these shows just became parties
the cops shut most of em down
thanks so much you ungrateful punks
for ruining the best place in town

Gratitude

You can only give for so long
And when you don't get
It's easy to forget
Why you are here in the first place

Without Context

IM PETRIFIED

THAT A DRINK

CAN MAKE YOU FORGET MY EXISTENCE

AND I THINK

THATS A SHITTY FUCKING EXCUSE

HOME

HAS NEVER

FELT SO FAR AWAY

THIS IS THE LAST I'LL SEE

CERTAIN FAMILIARITY

THESE ROADS

THAT LEAD

ME HOME

WILL SOON BE UNKNOWN

THESE ROADS

THAT LEAD

ME HOME

WILL SOON BE UNKNOWN

I'LL FORGET THAT SENSE EXISTS

I WONT REMEMBER THIS

YOU CAN CUT OFF THE HAND THAT FEEDS YOU

BUT IT WILL NOT GIVE YOU STRENGTH

Boy

I just saw the face

of a boy I knew last week.

It may not be my place

but I would like to speak.

You can wish your life away,

yeah, to your hearts content

but will you be happy

when your last breath has been spent

We won't know if our hearts

will get the best of us

but I know that fear

will not take mine

if we live in gratitude

to the best of our ability

we will all be fine

the boy could have been

just any one of us

he got caught in a mistake

his friends go on with their lives

I won't mention it for their sake

At what point did I

learn that some things die?

Sometimes you can't help it

Some fight to stay alive.